Not Black & White

Written for a close friend of mine - may she see the beauty and strength that is her.

But For Now A Prayer

I sit around the china-covered table surrounded by family and friends,
watching as the candles dance in the holiness around.
We already sung the Song of the Angels,
they have blessed us and flew up home.

Now, I close my eyes and softly sing
a question of three thousand years;
one that changes over time;
every week a new meaning.

It began as just a song;
one that I would sing hungrily.
Then it became a goal,
as I pondered its meaning.

Now, as I question the same as King Shlomo,
it has become a prayer from my soul.
One day I know it will be what it was always meant as:
a song of praise for my missing half.

When will I find the one that the song portrays?
Am I even looking in the right direction?
Will it be a rough road, or one freshly paved?
Who will be my better half; my pearl of an Aishes Chayil?

I think I know what I am looking for,
yet, I pray that I'm correct in what I want.
I whisper that I just want what is the best for me,
as my eyes open and watch the flames carry my prayer within their dance.

I then smile and prepare for Kiddush,
content in my prayer's success.
I soak in all that I am thankful for,
and look forward to a week of beauty.

I know now that I have done all that I can,
it is in the hands of the Holy One.
Yes, for now it is just a prayer,
But I know that one day it will be much more.

The Red Pen Oath

            Throughout my life, I have been the “Class Nerd”, the “Bookworm”, or the horrid “Teacher’s Pet”. Thus I was constantly picked on and bullied. My classmates taunted me for picking up a pen instead of a bat; for reading while they were dribbling. They harassed me for talking about authors while they discussed athletes.

            While they threw me in the figurative (and, on quite a few occasions, literal) mud, I had those who picked me up, cleaned me, and handed me back my dreams: Teachers. For you see, many can “teach”, but it takes a special person to BE a teacher. Someone who will never stop encouraging you; who will keep tabs on your career to date; who look forward to seeing your name in print. Thankfully, I had, and have, many such teachers to this very day.

            In twenty-four days I will leave Oakland Community College with my Associate in Liberal Arts degree and enter the doors of Oakland University’s College of Arts and Science for a Bachelor in English. Yet, I hope to return to OCC as an English Professor armed with an empty notebook and the infamous ‘Red Pen’. But the pen doesn’t have to evil; true teachers use it to write encouraging notes to their students. And that is what my pen will only spell.

            And to those who bully nerds, I have just one thing to say to you: I’m sorry. I’m sorry that you will never have the privilege to fight dragons, to collaborate with aliens, to become Sacagawea; to be the town’s hero. May you one day let someone turn the page of your story together with you.

            The following is my rendition of the “Red Pen Oath” of a teacher:

The Red Pen Oath

May I take a child and turn him into his dream,

Mold him carefully only into the shape that he requests,

Lift him up when others shove him down,

Love him like a son.

I vow to use my pen of red to only spell encouragement,

To write bits of devotion in the margins,

Underline the greatness and circle the potential,

Highlight his passion for the world to see.

May I stay awake at night feeling the pains of my student,

Heal the worries out of his heart,

Cry tears of joy at his success,

Guide him on the path of truth.

I vow to never give up on a difficult pupil,

To patiently repeat lessons as needed,

To grade exams by the student never by the answers,

To give him endless worlds of opportunities.

May I begin every lesson with a smile,

End each with the same,

Compliment each child personally when he enters,

And bid goodbye with words of hope.

I vow to view each pupil like the diamond that he is,

To never allow administration or parents to warp his creativity,

To protect him from the playground bullies,

And help him shine forever more.

May I do more than present lesson plans,

To live a 9-5 job,

To leave my students within the confines of the classroom,

To look at them as paychecks.

I vow to follow the path of my pupil,

Even long after he leaves my care,

For he will remain forever in my roster,

Just like a red pen’s ink is permanently displayed.

My Brother Journeys Forward

Pinchus' Hachnosas Tefillin

           

             The Fall 2014 semester began at Oakland Community College with me taking a class I didn’t plan on: Creative Writing. I had planned to take the class in the upcoming winter, however it was in my shopping cart and I accidentally clicked ‘Register’.

            Someone else also didn’t plan on taking the class, yet did so for the English credits he needed. His name was Brandon Rosenblatt.

            I entered the classroom and saw a familiar face, Brandon looks quite a bit like myself, so I sat down next to him and inquired his name. Upon hearing his last name, I immediately asked if he was Jewish. He hesitantly responded yes, but was quick to inform me that he is not religious in any sense of the word – nor does he plan on being. I let the topic drop for the time being.

            As the semester was nearing its end, I asked Brandon if he would like to join my family for a Shabbos meal. He said no thanks and that he hasn’t been religious since he was twelve years old. That won’t change. Once again I dropped the subject for next while.

            Brandon and I quickly became close friends. We would hang out a bit when possible and, at the time, planned on transferring to the same college together. Mid-August I asked Brandon to show me around Oakland University and he agreed. While waiting for the bus to arrive, I asked him if he would like to join me at my brother Red’s home for the upcoming Friday night Shabbos meal. He somewhat reluctantly agreed.

            As the special meal grew closer, Brandon became slightly more excited and even began to anticipate the occasion. He asked what should he expect and I explained the basic schedule of events. He joined me for the Shabbos day services at the Woodward Avenue Shul and then we parted ways. That Shabbos was unbelievable and it was the beginning of a new Brandon.

            Shortly after Brandon began wearing a Yarmulka at One Stop, where he works as a cashier. Sukkos came around and Brandon and his uncle, Louis, was invited to my sister’s house for one of the Yom Tov meals. Brandon called me in advanced and asked me to bring him something for the meal: a pair of Tzitzis so he can start wearing them.

            And now, about a month later, he has been keeping Shabbos frequently with the amazing guidance of the Kogan family, who have taken him in like a son, and he asked me Shabbos morning to help him put on Tefillin later on in the week for his very first time.

            This morning, the 30^th of Marcheshvan, 5776, Brandon, now known as Pinchus, woke up early and together we learned the laws of Tefillin. Afterwards the moment arrived. We began with reciting the day’s Hayom Yom and then as the niggun of the Bar Mitzvah Maamer flowed throughout the room, Brandon/Pinchus donned Tefillin for his first time. Reciting vital prayers together with him, word by word, brought tears to my eyes. I watched in admiration as he silently spoke with Hashem. Once completed with his prayers the room burst with the song Siman Tov U’Mazel Tov blasting through the speakers as we took off the Tefillin and wrapped them up; my soul was bursting with joy for my brother.

            My dear Pinchus, may you only grow from this moment on as you embark further on your journey of spirituality. Know that I am always with you and will never leave your side. May today be the first of many and just one of the many firsts you will take into your soul. May these straps be your rope to pull you closer to G-d, one mitzvah at a time.

To The One Who Made Me An Uncle

Dedicated in honor of the Bas Mitzvah of my dear niece Devorah Sarah Kriegsman

Twelve years ago,

you entered this world,

and changed

Everything!

You turned a Bride & Groom

into Mommy & Tatty;

A couple

into a family;

Proud Parents

into prouder Grandparents;

Brothers and Sisters

into eager Uncles and Aunts.

You touched lives

With your

Itty fingers

and huge

heart.

You grew from a baby

to a child

to a girl

and now

into a

proud

young

woman.

You have grown in ways

that have made everyone

near you glow with pride.

You are a

True

Bas Melech:

the King’s

beloved daughter;

on her pathway

to becoming the next Queen.

I don’t say it often,

Perhaps not even show it enough,

But I love you dearly,

My dear Devorah Sarah.

May you always

continue to be

True to yourself

and show the world

the power of a Princess.

I hope this special day

Brings you a step closer

to changing the world;

one beloved smile,

one heart filled hug,

at a time.

Keep growing,

Keep yearning,

Keep proving,

Keep bringing pride

the world that you changed

Twelve years ago.

First Step to Analyze a Poem

First, look at the form;

How many stanzas?

How many lines in each one?

Any noticeable rhyme scheme?

Is it a Ballad type,

that is common so,

by making every other line rhyme like

the end of two lines ago?

[Who caught the internal rhyme?]

notice any grammar oddities

perhaps no punctuation

or long run on sentences

without any capitalization

Look for

any

sort

of weird

Enjambment

in the

stanza.

It happens often when the poet

decides to personify

an inanimate

object

to help you understand

the poem’s thoughts.

Also, what persona is the poet?

Am I me? Or am I someone else?

And who is you?

Is you you, or is you the human nearby?

Be wary of caesuras. They make you stop and think.

Look for clichés like ‘Love is a flower’.

Wait a minute, did you just read a metaphor or a simile?

It’s funny when when you see repetition.

Yet know it it is on purpose.

It stresses the diction the poet meant.

Don’t you you just just love love this this so so much much?

[did you catch the irony involved?]

Understand the difference between

‘denotation’and ‘connotation’.

Denotation, society teaches us, is the literal definition;

Connotation, Webster explains, is the secondary meaning the word can refer to.

Alliteration is quite important.

Common consonance

or annoying assonance

is there to purposely set the tone.

Now, you see how to do step one.

Yet, the analyzation had just begun.

Good luck on the rest;

I now bid you adieu.

But before I leave,

I’ll give directions for the rest:

Solve the message of the poem’s purpose.

And don’t forget: which school does this poem belong to and why?

Shit List

[Dedicated to Ryan Dillaha and his unique teaching methods]

The fear.

The embarrassment.

The humility.

The shame.

The permanent name

engraved

in the board’s corner

lingering;

leering down

for all to know

as you crouch low;

praying

for Korach’s Hole.

The incriminating letter

burns

in your backpack

as you walk home

head hung in despair

with the ring of the

Kindergartens’ bell.

The discipline

shows the next day

with the fidgeting

of your buttocks

as you try to sit

still;

quiet,

alone.

A teacher’s pet.

A name erased.