Empty Chairs

Gathered together they wait patiently,
not a soul lingers nearby.
They wait without moving an inch,
unknowing who will be their future.

Seventeen of them are around,
waiting for the room to fill up.
Slowly one by one receives a soul,
it sits empty no more.

It has a gift of life,
for just an hour or three.
It hears the crying and the laughter
of whomever sits upon thee.

It learns a story of someone so special,
it is now content.
It becomes a reflection of the person,
it is their spot in the room.

Suddenly, without warning,
the human rises tall and proud.
Swiftly walks away and out the door,
never to be seen again.

It waits so anxiously,
for another to fill the void.
Will another come,
who may ever know?

We are all in this world,
for but a fleeting moment.
Our stories are told loudly,
and we laugh all together.

Yet a time does come when we get up,
we leave the room without a warning.
Just one question does remain,
that we must ask ourselves:

Will I remain an empty chair,
for I am leaving a legacy?
Or will I remain an empty chair,
for I am no one worth remembering?

It's More Than Just A Word

I've never come across a word quite like this one,
never thought I would have trouble speaking.
Yet, here I am, my mouth open wide,
but no sound escapes my lips.

Who could have foretold that it would end in this manner?
Who would have predicted this demise?
Was I blind and refused to see the signs around me?
I search for a different solution.

But NO!
This seems to be the truth.
There just is no changing life's direction.
What's over is simply over.
I must somehow move on.

It's time to say the word that I dread,
I can no longer pretend that this isn't the case.
My life is crashing down all around,
there is nothing left in my power to try.

So, I now say Goodbye.
It comes out choked and with tears,
If only there was a way to take it back.
I stretch my hand out - but it's gone.

I had no choice.
I was forced to say it against my will.
If only you would say "Nevermind",
and heal the pain.

I know you don't mean to make me feel this way,
You simply had no other option to choose.
I forgive you wholeheartedly.
I pray that you can move on easier than me.

It was perfect while it lasted,
Let us just stick with that fact.
Neither of us thought that we would say such a cruel word.
But it is time to say Goodbye,

Goodbye to what once was.
Goodbye to what we tried.
Goodbye to who we were.

Hello to what what we learned.
Hello to who we became.
Hello to what will be.

Goodbye to the duo you and me.
Goodbye, my friend.

I Wish

I wish I could just understand,
what is going on between the lines.
Where did things change?
Oh, what will be?

I wish that I had a better connection,
it seems so broken lately.
How did this happen?
Oh, what can I do?

I wish that things would not be so difficult,
when love is in the air.
What does it all mean?
Oh, why did this all happen?

I wish life would just work itself out,
and make things smooth once more.
When will it be like it was?
Oh, how can it be fixed right?

An Angel Flies Home

I don't know how, why, or when,

it just somehow seemed to happen.

My angel spread her wings and soared.

I don't understand it,

perhaps I never will.

She is where she belongs.

Oh Angel, if you can hear my voice,

listen closely, I do beg.

Understand that I know that you are home.

I wish you would return,

but I would never force you to stay in this world.

You deserve the life of perfection.

As long as you can smile each and every day,

then you will still be an angel.

And I will be comforted with that promise.

While I do wish things could change,

and perhaps they still will.

But it seems you have gone on.

Oh Angel, if you can hear me now,

know that I just want the best for you.

An angel deserves to be happy, no matter what.

I will give up everything,

to help you soar your own way happily.

Just know, you can always return to this world.

Oh Angel, spread those wings of white,

take all that life has to offer.

Perhaps, you will let me fly by your side.

I know things are rough,

I wish I had wings of my own.

Perhaps one day you will return.

I just ask one thing of my Angel,

I beg you to fulfill this request:

Watch me from above - do not remove yourself from me completely.

Let us remain close,

regardless that you are not the same now.

Watch over me - as a friend - and no more.

Angel, please return,

show me a sign.

Help me get a pair of wings to call my own.

So Long Now

Sitting on my Grandmother's couch,
wishing I could remember her.
Thinking of the the family moments that I never knew.

Dreaming of what my life could have been like,
with my brother chilling together with me.
Thinking of the family moments that could have been.

Remembering the day I heard the news,
five painful years ago when I lost my sister.
Thinking of the family moments that had to change.

It has been so long now,
when will the darkness end?
It shouldn't have to be this way for real.

It has been so long now,
what will be?
How can I keep up like this?

It has been so long now,
oh when will you all return?
I miss you more than ever on this night.

It has been so long now...

It's 3AM

It's 3AM and my mind is racing,
I can't sleep even if I tried.
Thoughts flood my brain,
Confusion sets upon me.

I'm scared of what will be,
Yet glad for what was.
I open up my mind,
And this is what spills out:

Will I ever see her again?
Will her smile light up my world once more?
What is going on in my life to date?
Where is this all heading?

Five years is so long,
The circle of life is completed.
A baby so very small,
Will grow to be a huge impact on the world.

I stepped my toes in the water this past May,
No I will never regret it.
But what is going to occur now,
Who can possibly know?

Friends are the only thing keeping me going,
They are my lifeline.
They will always be there by my side,
No matter what or when or why.

I'm nervous for the school year,
This semester is so crucial.
I must get into my dream school,
And leave a legacy behind.

It's 3AM and I'm wide awake,
I gotta sleep sometime soon.
I know everything will work itself out,
So I must stop freaking out.

It's 3AM and my mind is calming down,
I have faith and that is enough right now.
Tomorrow is a new day with new revelations,
I have done all that I can do.